[Onefast99gsx]

Aww..Geez Brian! I'm reading this thinking that there was some good in this towards the end of your writing. I'm VERY sorry to hear about your Dad! I know exactly how you feel. I lost my Mom in 1999. She was 49. Diabetes got the best of her. You never get over it. All you do is learn how to cope with it. The odd thing is that it happened the day after my Birthday. Holidays and Mothers day is the worst. It takes awhile for the reality to kick in. Up until then, you always have the thought of knowing that you have the option to visit them. Then all the sudden one day, that's gone. I'm very close to my family. I saw my Mom pretty much on a daily basis. Extremely rough and I don't wish it upon anyone. It's the toughest thing I've ever had to deal with. You just have to be thankful for the time that you were able to spend with your parents while you were with them.

Hang in there and give your Mom all the support you can in which I know you will.

-tim