Thanks for all of your wisdom and all, but you all know that I am going to go and stay with her for a few more years. I am well aware I should just get rid of her and find someone else, but I love too much and am too afraid of hurting her to just let her go just like that. Thats why I say I am too nice, because even if it hurts me, I don't want to hurt anyone else. Somewhere deep down inside, I hope that she changes, but we all know the odd's of that are slim. Its just how I am.
There other shit that is bothering me lately too.
I am at UTI for to become a "Technician"..............Fuck that, I don't want to be a Technician. For like 3 years, I swore up and down that it was what I wanted to do, but shit, it sure as hell isn't. Today I plan on going in and dropping the Diesel portion of it, and signing out to test out of most of what I know. Actually, if I wasn't stuck on a year lease with 2 roommate's that I would never fuck over, then I would be up and quitting school right now, and going back for mechanical or electrical engineering. That is what I really want to be I think, an engineer. So here I am, thinking "Damn, what am I doing here, I don't want to go here, I'm not learning shit, and it's not even what I want to do". Ugh, just pisses me off that I am going to end up wasting money on this shit when it's not what I want to do. I suppose that I will be able to have a decent job through college though, which will be nice. I mainly just want to get back to MN, stay there, get a job, go to school, and be there for everyone else.
There are some people on here I should probably thank for some random things.
Kevin (Santa) - Thanks for being a best friend for the past 18 years, helping me out with shit, and just in general, being an awesome friend.
Cher (Atleastitswhite?) - 1. For getting me in to Mraz, you fucking asshole:-p and 2. For chatting with me, trying to help out, and being the person I talk to every night from 2am to 4am. Oh, and thank's again for letting me have your baby (SC300) for prom, it was the coolest car there
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Tauni (Glorifiedneongrl?) - For helping me through some shit I have been dealing with as far as my girlfriend and other things go, and just in general being a really nice and cool person to talk to.
The Hung Tau Crew (Kyle, Dave, Amanda, ect... you know who you are) For staying awake long enough for me to be able to hang out with you guys after I get done hanging out with Miss Controlling. I should really spend more time with you fuckers, as I always enjoy myself when I do.
Shit, I'm sure there is more, but Im tired as fuck, just drove 6 hours from 10-4am, and slept 4hr's the night before.
Okay, Rant off