dumb_ricer
10-02-2005, 04:49 AM
First, if you don't want to read it, DONT, I am not forcing you to, so I don't want to hear what a waste of time or any of that shit. You make a choice to read what you read, and you do not have to. I already sound pissed, don't I?
Okay, first off, I don't know what to do with my girlfriend. I am almost 19 years old and I have been dating her for a cunt hair under 2yrs. I can honestly say that I love her to death and would do anything/everything for her. But that is exactly the problem, I *DO* have to do anything and everything for her, which I am fine with, as long as she appreciates it. The problem comes in when she does not appreciate what I am doing and how nice of a person I am really being to her. Yes, a lot of guys say they are nice as fuck to girls and that they can put up with a lot of shit, but I can honestly say I can put up with more shit then I have ever seen in my entire life, and this is not a good thing. Maybe I am just pulling a curtian over reality and I am really an asshole, but I highly doubt it. She will get mad at me for really stupid reasons, and part of it is probably because we are currently in a long distance relationship. I don't mind being in a long distance relationship, but she hates, doesn't want to do it, yet every time I ask if she would be better off staying single its a firm NO. And when I say stupid reasons, I truely and honestly mean stupid as hell reasons. She got mad at me not too long ago for finishing a movie that had 20mins left over talking to her right when she wanted to. The list of dumb things just goes on and on and on. And then I drive 6 hours home every weekend (Chicago to East Twin Cities) to see her, and every time, the first word's out of her mouth are bitching at me for something or another. And the problem is I give in too easily, and yes I can say that, I give in way too damn easily, I give up/quit, and just build up stress. I will say that I am usually not a stressed out person at all, but usually (90%) of the time, I am stressed and just throw on my happy face that I am oh so good at. It's not that I get overly stressed, just to the point that I just kind of want to chill out, not talk to people in person, and just think. Thinking is my way out. But whatever, nothing you guys say about my girlfriend situation will change what I do, I will keep being a pussy and will not doing anything about it, like I have been for 2 years. It's fine though, because when I am actually with her in person, we are awesome together, but any other time, I cant stand being on the phone with her for very long, because I make her mad. Oh well.
OKAY, LETS GO TO TUESDAY
Well, I wasn't told most of this shit until yesterday (saturday) about how my mom has been feeling for the past week. She started getting pretty bad back pain on Monday I guess, and decided to go in and see the doctor on Tuesday. Well, Tuesday morning well she was taking a shower, something in her back cracked, she fell to the ground, and passed out in pain. Thank god my dad was home and went in to the bathroom. They went in to the doctor, my mom BARELY being able to walk, like she needed help to walk, and couldnt stand up for more then 15 secounds, and the doctor gave her pills and told her to come back Monday if it was still happening. She asked him to look at her and see if it was something, and he said its probably nothing, just a spazm or something like that. She could'nt fucking walk, somethings not right, hello. So she left the doctor in Awe that he did not do anything, and went home to lay on the living room floor for almost 2 days in pain. My dad didn't know what to do, the doctor seemed pretty confident that it was a common thing for people to come in almost in tears from pain not being able to walk, and all you needed was a pain killer. Well, she layed there most of the 2 days, and it progressively got worse, and it got to the point that she could hardly move her lower body, so she called my aunt, and she got a hold of my dad and they took her in to the ER. Well, within an hour they had her in either the MRI or CTscan machine, and saw that one of the disc's in her back had cracked and was crushing her spinal cord, and pinching/cutting the nerves. At this point on thursday I was called and informed, but shit, I'm in Chicago, worthless, and I still have to wait until friday before I can go home. So I keep in touch with my older sister, and she called when the results came in saying that my mom was pretty much paralyzed from the waist down for the rest of her life, she will never walk again, and we have to get used to it. I am pretty much in tears hearing this, so I tell to call back when they find out more. Well I decide to call the girlfriend to get some support, and she pretty much bitches at me because she was planning on coming to visit me and now I have to come home. I can understand her disappointment, but when she bitched, I flipped. So around 1 I get another call saying that she was done with surgery and the damage wasn't as bad as it looked at first. Well this is good news, and she can partially move her toes and knees, so she is not fully paralyzed. Well, went in yesterday and saw her for a while, and she can walk with a walker and some help now, but she has a long road of re learning how to walk/climb stairs/do everything over again. We wont know for up to a year and a half how much feeling and ability will come back. As of right now, her bladder does not work, so that could be a pretty big change for her. In general it sucks, but it could be MUCH worse.
I think its more of the fact that I just keep letting shit build up over time when I should get it out of my system in the first place.
Whatever, I'm tired, going to bed.
PS: If anyone actually read that, you definitely don't have ADD:)
Okay, first off, I don't know what to do with my girlfriend. I am almost 19 years old and I have been dating her for a cunt hair under 2yrs. I can honestly say that I love her to death and would do anything/everything for her. But that is exactly the problem, I *DO* have to do anything and everything for her, which I am fine with, as long as she appreciates it. The problem comes in when she does not appreciate what I am doing and how nice of a person I am really being to her. Yes, a lot of guys say they are nice as fuck to girls and that they can put up with a lot of shit, but I can honestly say I can put up with more shit then I have ever seen in my entire life, and this is not a good thing. Maybe I am just pulling a curtian over reality and I am really an asshole, but I highly doubt it. She will get mad at me for really stupid reasons, and part of it is probably because we are currently in a long distance relationship. I don't mind being in a long distance relationship, but she hates, doesn't want to do it, yet every time I ask if she would be better off staying single its a firm NO. And when I say stupid reasons, I truely and honestly mean stupid as hell reasons. She got mad at me not too long ago for finishing a movie that had 20mins left over talking to her right when she wanted to. The list of dumb things just goes on and on and on. And then I drive 6 hours home every weekend (Chicago to East Twin Cities) to see her, and every time, the first word's out of her mouth are bitching at me for something or another. And the problem is I give in too easily, and yes I can say that, I give in way too damn easily, I give up/quit, and just build up stress. I will say that I am usually not a stressed out person at all, but usually (90%) of the time, I am stressed and just throw on my happy face that I am oh so good at. It's not that I get overly stressed, just to the point that I just kind of want to chill out, not talk to people in person, and just think. Thinking is my way out. But whatever, nothing you guys say about my girlfriend situation will change what I do, I will keep being a pussy and will not doing anything about it, like I have been for 2 years. It's fine though, because when I am actually with her in person, we are awesome together, but any other time, I cant stand being on the phone with her for very long, because I make her mad. Oh well.
OKAY, LETS GO TO TUESDAY
Well, I wasn't told most of this shit until yesterday (saturday) about how my mom has been feeling for the past week. She started getting pretty bad back pain on Monday I guess, and decided to go in and see the doctor on Tuesday. Well, Tuesday morning well she was taking a shower, something in her back cracked, she fell to the ground, and passed out in pain. Thank god my dad was home and went in to the bathroom. They went in to the doctor, my mom BARELY being able to walk, like she needed help to walk, and couldnt stand up for more then 15 secounds, and the doctor gave her pills and told her to come back Monday if it was still happening. She asked him to look at her and see if it was something, and he said its probably nothing, just a spazm or something like that. She could'nt fucking walk, somethings not right, hello. So she left the doctor in Awe that he did not do anything, and went home to lay on the living room floor for almost 2 days in pain. My dad didn't know what to do, the doctor seemed pretty confident that it was a common thing for people to come in almost in tears from pain not being able to walk, and all you needed was a pain killer. Well, she layed there most of the 2 days, and it progressively got worse, and it got to the point that she could hardly move her lower body, so she called my aunt, and she got a hold of my dad and they took her in to the ER. Well, within an hour they had her in either the MRI or CTscan machine, and saw that one of the disc's in her back had cracked and was crushing her spinal cord, and pinching/cutting the nerves. At this point on thursday I was called and informed, but shit, I'm in Chicago, worthless, and I still have to wait until friday before I can go home. So I keep in touch with my older sister, and she called when the results came in saying that my mom was pretty much paralyzed from the waist down for the rest of her life, she will never walk again, and we have to get used to it. I am pretty much in tears hearing this, so I tell to call back when they find out more. Well I decide to call the girlfriend to get some support, and she pretty much bitches at me because she was planning on coming to visit me and now I have to come home. I can understand her disappointment, but when she bitched, I flipped. So around 1 I get another call saying that she was done with surgery and the damage wasn't as bad as it looked at first. Well this is good news, and she can partially move her toes and knees, so she is not fully paralyzed. Well, went in yesterday and saw her for a while, and she can walk with a walker and some help now, but she has a long road of re learning how to walk/climb stairs/do everything over again. We wont know for up to a year and a half how much feeling and ability will come back. As of right now, her bladder does not work, so that could be a pretty big change for her. In general it sucks, but it could be MUCH worse.
I think its more of the fact that I just keep letting shit build up over time when I should get it out of my system in the first place.
Whatever, I'm tired, going to bed.
PS: If anyone actually read that, you definitely don't have ADD:)